Carmen was a woman of worth. She loved to the point her heart bled. Gave to the point of exhaustion. Her splendor and beauty was not enough for some but she came to accept it. She would not compromise who she was. Her soul was beauty with a light that shone bright as the stars.
She had lived a rough life and had just come to accept she was stuck in a quandary that would never change. Pain had become part of her every day life. A wall of stone had built up over time which surrounded her. It was safe inside here, no-one in and no-one out. It was a perfect hiding place. The perfect fortress of solitude. Inside here none could see what ripped her apart. She did not have to share, think or feel.
One night when she was feeling lost and alone a stranger who had been silently watching strode up beside while she sat on her favorite park bench staring at the nights sky.
May I sit, he said in the softest of voices. Intrigued by the kindness and the pure alluring voice she allowed it. Her curiosity was peaking inside her. Why would such a stranger show any interest in her? What did he want from her? After all, they all want something, they always do. First the appearance of GIVE; feed the soul what you think it wants, lure it in and dance around inside it, lick it, nurture it, make it feel joyous and fed. Caress it and hold it close, as long as it does not speak anything but encouragement and love or have an opinion of its own.
Butterfly kisses and Floating Hearts. Lost in a dream.
Then, when the thought of contentment is in its existence comes the TAKE. Pull everything you gave it away. Ripped from the wave of time. Gone in the night. Nothing left but a whisper anything was ever there at all. Vanished. The only thing that remains is a slight breeze brushing past her long dress.
Remains of the days passed.
Tonight she decided to take a stroll, one she hadn’t been on in some time. She’d not allowed herself to do so. She’d given everything she could, she’d burst forth from her own chest and thrown forth every bit of essence she had to give. But alas, it was not enough. Rather than wallow she set forth on a journey. Taking in the night’s air once again. Learning how to breathe again. It felt wonderful. She met new friends along the way. Conversational topics that moved and tickled her. She found beauty in it. Found delicious mind nuggets that fed and replenished her soul. She found open hearts and open minds to soothe her battered soul. They fed her well, gave her strength and told her there was always a place for her, that she will always be needed and loved. She bathed in this out-pouring of love. It was real, it was genuine, it was offered right there in front of her to take in and replenish herself. Men and Women offering her comfort, compliments and love. Feeding her soul. Reminding her of her beauty, her sensuality, her honesty and devotion was now craved by others and this made her feel alive. Some telling her how much she is wanted, desired and needed gave her an electrifying boost. How much they could offer her if she only let them. She would never be alone again. Never left to feel insecure or unwanted. Her sheer beauty and openness and honesty was loved, adored and wanted. Her body a temple. Her mind a whirlwind of adventure and hope.
She slowly started to realize she was being held perpetually in one place, suffocating and alone. Trapped in the abyss. It was not good for her. For lack of better description she needed to spread her wings and fly. Visit lands of unknown origin. Test waters of different times. She reached deep down within her own essence and found purpose. There are journeys yet to be had and lands yet to be discovered. Never hold yourself in once place when you are not appreciated. Never hold yourself back. There is tons of love and devotion out there. Feel it touch your skin. Let it into your heart. There are many lessons in life and you will always be in a continuous state of learning. Take notes for they are of the up-most importance. Know your worth. Know your limitations and expectations and adjust and adapt When one door closes another will open. Never be afraid to walk through that open door. You will never know what lies inside until you step over the threshold.